Litter

I’m a literary fearist
Literally in fear of
Being lit and critically
Burned by unforeseen
Circumstances from
Those reading books
In cultured scenes.
Litter lines my street
Neat rows of planted cans
Flowers sprout up
Through chicken wings
Bodies, fleshed out
Plots of land spread thin
Not a single metaphor
Mixed in the cracked
Pavement weed skin.
It’s a tarnished hole
Of thoughtless crimes
Against the wordy world
In library lobbies
Where the whispers swirl
I’ll admit my guilt
Emit the fear, cuff me
Before I stray within
A hundred yards
Of a keyboard, pen
Or pencil case. Laptop
Desk or a paperchase
The furious snapping of
Scholars flexing twigs
Burning every copy
They find sitting on a shelf
Come light the kindle
Destroy the notes
Relieve the world
This storyboard needs
To find a deep tarmac grave
So no-one has to suffer
The fear of it
Being read.

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Litter

Right

The way society works
Is to reach an invisible
Hand in to crush a heart
Without warning
As a selfish man reaps
The rewards of coming
First in the evolutionary race
The rights of two
More important than one
Solid friends need
Close stimulation
The exhausting experience
Of invasive spacial perception.
I see the hazard light
Flash in my eyes
Who am I to refuse?
Security, remove this bastard
From the bus.
I’m in the wrong, and I know it
But despite the hostile muttering
Not a punch was thrown
But inwardly I dig myself
A little shelter
For the four hour siege
Trying not to eat
The sensitive areas of brain
Sometimes, it’s best to forget
The momentary lapses
Of your own contradictions

Right

Mote

I have a thing for vulnerable women
I emotionally connect
Through a saviour complex
Corrosive to the touch
With a sickly sweet taste
It burns its way through their system
My voice wraps around their waist
In soothing sentences
I reach forward to embrace
To feed on the neurosis
To repeat the cycle
More powerful with each breath
Damsons don’t grow
If kept under duress
I can’t help someone help themselves
If I abuse them like anyone else
Just subtler ways, of wording
Delicate, polite home invasion
Never quite asking forthrightly
If I’m overstepping
Boundaries, not clear
I’m searching for that loving
Taste of fruitful distress
For someone to need me
To be rock solid, level-headed
Heavy leaded
Laden with motive
Malevolence embedded

Mote

Boxing

Kick those voices
With a good steal
Boot sale in the back
Silver lining shrapnel
Picked up tat
Under the leather
Shredded endeavour
Maker’s mark on fine
Printed souls
War and tear
Names rubbed off
In the decade
Since I bought
The lock
They grumbled at night
I placed masking tape
To keep the words
From appearing on record
Overdubbed between licks
I’d forgotten they existed
Till I opened it by mistake
Now, they speak fluently
Darting across the room
Just out of harms reach
Like a cat, boxing
Ring manners
No punch thrown
Till the bell end
In the middle
Turns his back

Boxing

Elegant

I’ve been given my injections
Jabbed in the arm
All the armoury I need
From a word floating
Through the air
Like an elegant dancer
Shape and form
Twirling through the gaps
Heat seeking missile
Dynamite on impact
But I’m standing tall
A diplomat of importance
Over-reaching my area
Straining to leech
Bloodsuckers in baths
It’s difficult to sleep
Without guards to halt
An airborne attack
The tiny dancer
Whistles in the wind
Carefully throttled
By a little voice
Whispering into my ear

Elegant

Spin

I get the feeling the ones
Who die young don’t deserve it
The wholesome ones
Loved, by all their fellows
Less lizard, more model citizen
Happy-go-lucky at altitude
Even as they cough
Deep red phlegm
The neighbours
Fight to breach
The edge of the ambulance
To ride in the backseat
Bottle a dying breath.
But us survivors are bitter
Self-indulgently grieving
Brandishing bouquets
Like magicians
Willing mortal punishment
An iron fist to get it over with
If there’s not a good word to say
Then I’ll sneer and disparage
Disgruntled, I’ll be,
Through every wheezing breath
No matter how many times
I hurl myself down the stairs
Some foolish medic
Stops the bleeding
Even when I chunter
They always continue
Before being knocked over
The next afternoon
Heart disease, apparently
Oh, isn’t it sad?
They died so young
Not a crease on fine linen
It all washes off
My holes filled with plaster
Made more of patches
Than the body I grew in
A sorry, wretched thing
Lest anybody speaks
With any positive spin

Spin

Panic

It’s common courtesy
When having a panic attack
To check everyone is fine to deal
With the aftermath
A quick heads up.
Disaster planning.
Alight here for self-destruction
And other harmful activities
It’s not that I’m anxious of
The tiny disruption I cause
It’s the cosmic insignificance
Being smaller than a quark
Still remembering to treat
Others with care
Even if it’s an empty gesture
From deep within the despair
It’s impossible to see
Beyond the empty space
Impulsive need to sabotage
The hapless animal in the cage
Darkness spreads through my pupils
Bleeding into the whites
Eyes that look infected
Vision losing sight
I feel nothing but the fear of death
Dragging me from this brief
Breath above the blackness
The act between two sleeps
Between something and nothing
Before the morphine eases pain
The dream of a hot, white light
Cools to blackness as it fades
For millennia the core spins
Till there’s nothing left
But a timeless return to the void
Space no longer bereft

Panic